As
I was going for my morning run in today's sickening heat, something
about the terrain I crossed triggered a memory of what it was like when
we used to vacation at my grandpa's cabin. And just like that I was
awash in nostalgia.
My Grandpa Ceman was part owner of a
cabin in Drummond, WI, in the northernmost part of the state. From the
time I was very young, my family took its annual summer vacation in
Drummond. I'm sure that when I was 4 or 5 or so, I loved the place.
However, all I can really remember is hating it.
I
didn't hate the experience, of course, being with my family (though
maybe sometimes I did). No, the actual place, it disgusted me. The cabin
was red. The lone shower in the lone bathroom (minus the outhouse, of
course) was red, too. It was covered in rust and was creepier than any
Bates Motel shower. Only iron-tinged water ran through the pipes there,
so the bathroom had that distinct aroma.
The place, at
large, smelled of mildew. Dampness embedded deeply each bunk bed and all
the furniture. The rampant moldiness sent my childhood asthma into
overdrive many a summer.
I have a hard time
pinpointing what got to me most. My grandpa and his friends (and his
friends' families, etc.) used the place from time to time, of course. To
this day, I still have neuroses about using things that aren't mine.
"Is that a cabin spoon?" is a running joke that my family still has when
we vacation together. I'm a home body at heart and soon begin to long
for my own space no matter where I am.
Back in the good
old days, Mom and Dad would pack one of our perpetually breaking-down
vehicles to the gills, and we'd make the six-hour trek to Drummond,
always stopping at the Dairy Queen Brazier in Tomahawk to eat. We used
car-top carriers to haul all our stuff. We lost my favorite Wonder Woman
sleeping bag on one trip when it rolled off the top of the car. One of
our cars was a giant Buick station wagon. It had a rear-facing seat. We
called it the way back and fought over who got to sit there.
My
parents invited various family friends to stay with us. Some of those
people, whom we know only tangentially now, I wonder, why on earth did
they invite them? Mostly, though, we spent time there with our dearest
family friends, the Hammers, as well as friends of my brothers and me.
My
best friend, Crystal, and I spent many a summer day there. Here we are,
at left. I don't think Crystal was as prissy as I was, but in a show of
solidarity, she, like me, decided to forgo showering for most the days
we spent there, instead taking our inner tubes and a bar of soap out to
Lake Drummond, just down the path from the cabin. Sorry, environment!
My
brothers and I feasted on junk food and swilled cans of Jolly Good soda
in flavors like grape, fruit punch and pina colada, blissfully unaware
of the evils of high-fructose corn syrup and artificial colors. We
didn't have a lot of money growing up. At home, my mom usually bought
glass bottles of Springtime Soda, the kind that we'd drink and bring the
empties back to the grocery store. Drinking our own cans of soda was a
big treat.
Stargazing was second to none at the cabin.
With virtually no light pollution, we could sit in our lawn chairs
around the fire and take in the night sky in all its glory,
intermittently playing silly games like telephone.
My
parents brought us on all kinds of great adventures when we were there.
We'd visit places of natural beauty like Amnicon Falls or Copper Falls.
As something special, we might drive to Bayfield and take the ferry
across to Madeline Island. Sometimes we'd go to Hayward and eat fudge or
trek to Duluth to look at the giant ships. And, of course, I spent a
lot of time bellyaching about the many hikes we took.
I'm
sorry to say, I spent a lot of time complaining away my time in
Drummond. As I headed into my teen years, this only grew worse. I took
my boys to Sunset Beach in Kimberly yesterday and was dumbstruck to
realize that it was 21 years ago - more than half my lifetime - that I
fell in love for the first time at 15 years old at that very beach. Yes,
I was that teenage girl who was perpetually falling in and out of love.
The
guy was Raimon, an exchange student visiting from Barcelona. Raimon was
staying with our friends, the Hammers. My family went to Drummond that
summer, without the Hammers, and I was heartbroken and angry to spend
precious time away from Raimon. This is a picture of my family with
Carlos, our exchange student and now a lifelong friend, on the last day
of our trip. Look how happy I am! How happy we all are, really.
A
few years before my grandpa died in 2001, he sold his share of the
cabin. The buyer renovated the place. It was quite the transformation, but I must say, it's that old ramshackle red cabin that holds a special place in my heart.
My family stayed there a few times since then, but we've long since
found other vacation locales. It's been a good 14 or 15 years since I've
been there.
On days like today, I still feel pangs, missing the halcyon times we spent in Drummond, many days that I squandered.
Truth
be told, I haven't changed a lot since then. I still love my creature
comforts, and if you plunked me back down in that old cabin, I might
well long for my home after a few days. My parents, however, have
instilled a love of nature in me. Hiking is one of my favorite pastimes
now, and I feel most at peace walking through the woods. My parents, in fact, who didn't have much, gave us so many rich experiences.
Each
summer, we take a summer vacation with my side of the family. We're
forgoing it this year in favor of a trip Mark and the boys and I will
take with my parents to Orlando in November. I'm feeling wistful about
skipping summer vacation.
I've always been lukewarm
about camping, but for my boys, I'm going to make a point of having us
get out there more. I want to give the boys the same gift my parents
gave me.
I'm thankful for the many weeks we spent in
Drummond. Those memories will stay with me always, crystalline, perfect
in their imperfection.